I want to remind my customers again how much they mean to me. How much I've enjoyed cooking and creating for them. You can find many restaurant recipes here in my index, and many more to come, especially in the cookbook!I want to tell my kitchen staff - Travis and Kyle - how awesome they both are. How I couldn't have done this without them. How we gave it one hell of a ride in a tiny kitchen not designed to do all of the everything we accomplished in it. To the rest of the staff, some of you I know, some of you I don't. But you all are appreciated. To staff past, you are still missed and thought of well. All of you. And boy did I learn a lot about being an effective manager from you. Thank you.
The guilt I have felt this past month has been terrible. I haven't been able to share this with anyone for a variety of reasons, many of them legal. It is so hard to talk to your staff with this level of uncertainty. I'm sorry.
We gave it our all. It was an amazing experience. I learned a lot. Pushed myself further than I ever thought I'd go. And it is my sincere hope I have another opportunity to continue to express my culinary point of view somewhere. That's been the hardest part for me to swallow. While my kids are fulfilling, and this blog too, without a platform to cook for, I feel lost. Cooking is my passion. Cooking is me. Without it, a part of me is missing.
But in every rainstorm there is a rainbow. In every shut door, an open window. At this point, I have to trust in God that something good is on the horizon - no matter how far the horizon may seem.
I am worried about my family's financial security. That is why I did the Bean and Rice Challenge. That is why I have $75 a week for groceries. I have been searching for coupons I can use for food I believe in purchasing, and have found some, so that is encouraging.
I have been the woman that needed to go in search of a job, yet couldn't afford the gas to put in the car to go looking. That woman was younger, true, and didn't have the added worry of 2 children. But that woman prayed. And that woman received a check in the mail from a distant relative. That check paid for the gas for the car. That car trip netted a job. God is real. He answers prayers, it's just not always what we want, but always what we need.
|My parents, the hard-working souls behind it all, right before we opened in October of 2008.|
|The table scape for the Valentine's Day Wine Dinner 2009, which I didn't select, by the way. This was our first wine dinner and everyone thought I was crazy for thinking we could pull it off. Pull it off we did!|
|Me - Triumphant and drunk on both adrenaline and wine after the first wine dinner ever, Valentine's Day 2009.|
|The cash-wrap and the door to the kitchen, circa 2009.|
|Me - pregnant with Liam - prepping the Valentine's Day Wine Dinner 2010.|
|Brian, being the awesome spouse he is, in to help with dishes for the Valentine's Day Wine Dinner 2010.|
|Me - I am apparently very pleased with my white chocolate seafood chowder for the Valentine's Day Wine Dinner 2010.|
|My parents before the Valentine's Day Wine Dinner 2010.|
|As the dust cleared after the New Year's Eve 2011 Wine Dinner.|
|The printed menu card from the New Year's Eve 2011 Wine Dinner.|
|Travis, my executive sous chef and wonderfully amazing partner in all of this, cleaning up after the New Year's Eve 2011 Wine Dinner.|
|Me after the New Year's Eve 2011 Wine Dinner trying not to look like my sciatica was killing me (thus the lean) or that I wasn't exhausted (which I was).|
|A cheeseboard circa 2009.|
|Chardonnay Onion Dip (aka Crack on a Cracker) circa 2009.|
|Brian and I dancing our first dance at our wedding reception, March 2009.|